Week 2. Man. The months leading up to this week were trying, to say the very least, but week three is when the shit hit the fan and everything in my life came to a head.
I’m watching this video back to add timestamps to this post and to be honest with you, it’s bringing me back to a very dark, very difficult place. It’s so crazy to see how dead my eyes look. By this point I had shut off all emotions and was surviving by avoidance. Just a reminder, I shared in this post that I am WAY behind on posting my updates to the blog, so today I’m actually 4 months out from my surgery. Therefor this post is taking it waaaaay back.
You know when you’re going through things and at the time you just do what you have to do to get through the day? Because really, what else can you do? But then you look back at those times and you think how in the world did I manage to get through that? That’s what I’m thinking watching this video. Remembering where I was at mentally, while also recovering from a major surgery…. phew.
Anyways! This post is not the time or the place for all that so let’s jump right in, shall we? Watch the video or continue scrolling for time stamps.
( 0:35 ) Sharing trauma and how that effected my recovery moving forward.
( 2:15 ) No one has a “perfect” recovery.
( 3:07 ) An adjustment to my pain medication schedule.
( 3:45 ) Pain meds making me sick.
( 4:03 ) Why I stopped taking pain medication.
( 4:20 ) Experience with driving.
( 5:20 ) How I felt with and without pain medication.
( 6:10 ) Starting to feel things differently after getting off medication.
( 7:15 ) Feeling burnout. Resuming normal activity.
( 8:50 ) Feeling “out of body.”
( 9:30 ) Recovery being like a roller coaster.
( 10:20 ) Transitioning sleep methods.
( 11:00 ) Struggles with laying on my side.
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( 12:20 ) Similarity of birthing a child and having surgery.
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( 12:30 ) Stomach feeling jiggly after surgery. Losing tone.
( 13:15 ) Doing things I shouldn’t be doing, ie. squatting and bending.
( 13:50 ) The most difficult time in the day.
( 15:05 ) Feelings similar to menstrual cramps.
( 16:00 ) Meals being the most difficult part of recovery.
( 17:00 ) Mental struggles and how it is effecting my recovery. Survival mode.
This week was all about survival. And that’s all I really have to say about that.
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Love you always, tara